Today I went to an appointment at my local job centre as I’m having to claim whilst I’m unemployed and looking for work.
At least I have a rough idea of what I want to do with my future now which is keeping me positive. Soon I’ll receive a date for my college interview and fingers crossed I will be able to get in to start in September this year. All I need to do in the meantime is keep positive and look for a part time job to get me back into a routine. I’m wanting to start getting back into fitness as I’m constantly tired at the moment and I just want to gain some energy back again. I’m not going to lie I have a terrible diet and level of fitness. It’s so hard to figure out where to start with getting back into shape and good health and finding the motivation inside to begin. It’s even more of a struggle when I’m battling with daily anxiety and depression struggles, I can’t sleep at night and then in the morning I just sleep in until late afternoon. My diet during the day consists of snacking on junk and then having the last meal of the day which is usually nothing extremely healthy but easy to whip up. I suppose I Just need to remind myself that whilst I’m sleeping the day away, shut away in these four walls I may as well be dead because I’m definitely not living. And If thats the case then I either need to do something about it and kick my life back into action or make the decision to shut down completely and end my story.
Struggled to get into todays blog post but hopefully my next one I’ll have more to say.
See you soon, A xx